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first lesson was physics... haha! watched a video... so funny la.. the compass.. lol... wonder how they get so much... lol... lol...

then ss.. hmm... globalisation.. the first thing i tot was.. they should have taught it last year.. then can write the compo.. lol...

then maths... super sian dere... 1st hr was juz reteachin 17a&b... 2nd hr was then 17c&d... lol.. tmr then do hw liao.. 'do' physics until sian diao... :X

then physics... (AGAIN!) another video... haha..

ohya! ZINC said two teachers were CUTE la.. omg! muahahahaha! *aiyoaiyoaiyo* :P :P :P

then after sch rained... not very wet leh... wanted to go mac.. but, have to eat lunch(?! :( ) then went home... first time reached home so early.. not even 4pm yet... but, faintin at home maight be better than faintin outside rite?

anyway, came out with sth juz nw.. :
hey! wheres the knife? opps.. it seems stuck at my wrist... omg! it turned red!
cool eh~ :] haha!

and and HAPI BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS TODAE!!! :] 28/5...

tats all! bb!

p.s. i love you ...
can you save me? i might be lost...

hmm... todae... had chem and hist... chem... started on alcohols.. :] hehe.. and drew the structure thing too! my fav out of the whole organic chem topic.. :] and and we get to bring fruits and make alcohol OURSELVES... :] hehe.. gg to bring LEMON! wonder how it taste like.. lol... so cool so cool.. :] *loves chem* hehehehehehe! ahh! cant stop being high! :] :] lol... :P

and then.. hist... hmm... first time listened so attentively durin hist... tiz year maybe.. i think or tiz + last year... lol... the last parts of the lecture was being 'choinged' through... still okay i think... think nia.. think...

then.. CIP! its was funner than i tot it would be.. haha! so cool.. many class ppl sat 31 to tampanies(dunno how spell)... and opps... got scolded by the bus driver cuz we were TOO LOUD... opps... heh... then ate at food court... yupp.. many ppl were dere... :] *cool man* lol... then while waitin for bus 72... hmm.. was laughin so super loudly.. haha... xw's so funny.. haha! then went to blocks to put the flyers and letters... fun lehx! :] then went home.. on the train.. of course its funny again... :]

then went boon keng... go there finish the maths 17A&B... lol.. much easier than i expected it to be... so started to slack when i doin halfway... opps... was smsin+playin my phone games(?!)+drinkin+tryin to let my ipod 'gain battery'... lol... so angry... jkjk.... cuz my ipod cannot lock.. then sometimes it will PLAY ON ITS OWN.. dun wan go repair again.. buy another one! haha... see first... if i manage to save money i mean... anyway... after finishin and laggin for abt 1hr plus plus... i went home... haha!

then went see doctor... hmm.. doctor said quite a lot of possible causes for my heart/chest aches..
1)skip meals/not havin proper meals
2)slp late
3)use com too much/late
4)some stomach thing
and much more... and so, got somethings that i MUST do...
1)take at least 3 proper meals per day
2)latest, slp at 11.30 everyday
3)by 11pm, the com muz be off
4)drink less cold drinks+drink more plain water
haha! :P ;)

and so, i am here bloggin... :] hmm.. go check if maths probability come out le ma.. bb! :]

todays`a`hapi`day`

p.s. i love you ...
dun slp late,use com too much, skip meals le orh~ :]

hmm... forgot wat happened ytd... so not bloggin abt ytd.. so sry... :X

anyways... had 'o' lvl cheena todae... for some reason and i dunno why, got feelin tat tiz is not 'o's... juz some other mock exam... lol... someone said the fact tat 'o' lvl chi is over is startin to sink in... hmm.. nw, i cant even believe i had ever started doin the 'o' lvl cheena paper la.. omg... and and.. was da-gai-in my grade i would get... either B4/C5... so bad la.. omg! and its after addin oral and listenin compre... ahh! charm charm charm! :'O 'lookin' at how badly i wrote for both compos and paper 2 compre.. i already quite sure i would get tat bad bad result... ahh! *bangs and says:'eh? y is the floor red?'* jkjk...

and and... was wonderin juz nw... how many ppl knew tat i was super super sad juz nw... after i received one msg then i was thinkin... after both papers.. and even when i was writin sths in sch... super sad... who knows ar? who knows ar?

anyway... tks for brightenin up my day todae... :] was seriously feelin much much much much better after tat.. :] gam xia! :] *bows* haha...

tats all... bb!

p.s. i love you ...
只想抱住你,紧紧不放,可以吗?

mornin. woke up at SEVEN! so early on a sat... cuz there's tiz cockroach. according to my mum. it ate a packet of milo tat was left on the table. then cuz my mum accidentally 'pour' it on my sis's bed... then my sis have to wake up. my mum try to remove the milo on my sis bed. then she bang. very loud. then i woke up. then saw my mum bangin. then cant slp. then read newspaper. finally. straits times i mean. then read until wan slp. then go slp. then woke up with someone callin at 11. the caller was i-dunno-who. then wake up liao.

then mug cheena. dunno 2/3 papers. paper 2 i mean. now doin the 3/4 one. sian liao. left 4 more qns. then dun wan do le. tmr go read. the dunno wat book. have bao zhang bao dao inside tat one. dun wan do papers liao. no use. tats wat i think.

be4 i forget. i wont be bloggin tmr. on9-in oso. so if got anything, sms me. tks.

and ytd in msn i said i would hug cj7 tightly. i did. i really did. tight until i was afraid it can 'breathe'.

have been hearin 为你写诗 tiz few daes. very nice. therefore. it shall be my blog song.

and bb.

p.s. i love you ...
li shi hui cong yan

amaths... lol... didnt understand integration... haix.. mon take tb come back study liao.. haiz.. hope the tb 'teaches' me how to do.. lol..

then chi again.. did paper1.. dunno how write the hou guo for the bao zhang bao dao, so wrote ji xu wen instead... lol... suddenly felt my story super stupid... and i was so blur/stupid/watever u call it.. tot can write until 11.15.. then is 10.45... then i still down dere write SLOWLY and KEEP LOOKIN AROUND.... lol... so blur la!~

then geog.. left tb in locker.. asked mrs long if i can go take then she asked me share cuz too far... but in the end, 'watched' the slides, w/o tb... got one super o-m-g de la... actually wanted to tell someone abt it juz nw.. but cuz of some reason (which i will be postin later) so nvr tell..

anyway, after sch, went mac... ya again... was studying and studying there... then SUDDENLY... and i mean SUDDENLY.. i super giddy la... first time giddy until so charm... eveything was like turnin turnin.... aiya... dunno how explain tat.. juz super giddy... then 'pa' on the table.. tot would get better... but it got WORSE instead.. actually didnt want to tell anyone... but i seriously damn scared sth will happen to me... so i ask someone if can pei me... and 2ppl came-ded... lol... then i was dyin dere... then SUDDENLY, again... felt like vomitin... omg la... so sad.. giddy+felt like vomittin... but tats not the worst yet... so sad, tong shang jia tong... MY HEART GONE CRAZY AND STARTED HURTIN! omg la... really felt like dyin then... haix... giddy+ felt like vomitin+heartache... omg la! wats happenin to me?

then when i went home tat time... actually hai hao de.. juz giddy and tat little bit of feelin like vomitin... then SUDDENLY,yet again... my heart/chest/watever u call tat was super SUPER pain! had no choice but to stop dere, like statue... cant move... maybe i can... juz afraid to try... anyway, when i walked to the steps dere cannot take it again... then i sat at the first step... bent down... then so many ppl called... omg la! y choose tiz time... omgomg.. anyway, listen to phone calls.. then started walkin again, with some help.. then as usual, climbed to the 3/4 floor then sort of had difficulty breathin again.... ah! then cant walk anymore, so stopped... then continued again... reached home *bang* on the sofa again... wanted to slp... but mum asked me go bathe... then bathe lor...

then now, i here, typin, with my heartachin... dunno is physically or mentally... nw, i rather mentally than physically liao la...though mentally might hurt more.... but still.. ya....

anyway, someone.. so sry abt juz nw... really had no strength... sry for 耽误-in ur time.. sry... sry.. though i know sry no cure... and at macs i super giddy so had to keep lie-in down.. not i want de... sry! i already tried to stay straight le... sry.. :'( if i am okay, i will _ de...

ya.. tats all.. bb... dmm... jk.. cuz i know no one would...

p.s. i love you ...
no matter wat happens, rmb, i WILL love you ...

omg! eng todae... did sort of 2 letters... for the testimonial thing.. lol.. was thinkin and think wat others said my gd points were when i was writin the personal attributes thing... lol...

chi~ finally! i finished my compo! the full paper! lol.. so hapi.. dunno why... do halfway suddenly will have somone sae-in tat he wan beat me... lol... and i was laughin like siao tat time... lol... lol... funny la! then after recess the chi... no mood to do paper 2 liao... .so did the cloze passage.. then the rest nvr do... opps! and was so shocked i got so many correct for cloze passage... if 'o's oso like tat then gd le... :]

then physics... did skill 3... was easy-er than the past few ones tat we did... and again, if we had tat for 'o's... then gd le... lol... anyway, physics is another laughin-lesson... for some reason, i was super high then... lol...

then after sch... went macs... did paper 2... hmm... do until i almost slept... lol... super tired.. dunno why... heng there's 2 ppl sms-in me occasionally... lol... if not i slp dere until nite oso dunno... lol... lol..

then AS USUAL, my heart ached AGAIN... so sad la... at least better than ytd, at least i can breathe todae... i mean.. no difficulty breathin... or maybe i did at some point but onli for a short while... many ppl asked me to go c doc. i dun wan... zn and kf will know y.. unless SOMEONE tell me go see doctor eh~ lol... now really cannot laugh too hard for a long period of time liao... if not later heart pain again... lol...

was thinkin(again) juz nw... not gg type liao... muahahahahaha! make ppl curious... ppl like grace... (no offence eh~) lol...

so, tats all! bb!

lamer`lives`up`to`her`name`
but`there`are`many`who`are`lame-er`than`her`

p.s. i love you ...
get well soon + slp early + dun worry abt me... :] :P

hmm... el.. didnt wanna listen... cuz.. cant see anything... then was so super blur at wat was taught.. omg la.. if tmr still 12classes in 1 lt, charm liao..

then chi... still didnt manage to finish the paper... the whole paper i mean... so sad.. then left abt half hr, continued doin the cat high paper.. lol.. i so super lag can~ lol... lol...

then chi again... seow lao shi gave a brief tok thing abt gong han.. was super high then.. dunno why... kept laughin, until i cried.. so long nvr like tat le... lol... <好怀念啊>

then chem.. did spa 3.. lol.. forgot flip through notes.. then dunno how do.. then kept askin...

then went for chi xtra lesson... i mean a lesson to clarify ur doubts... ya...

then after tat went mac.. lol.. change the place i sat for TWO TIMES... lol.. first time was cuz there's empty seat at the sofa thing there... then went dere.. 2nd time was when the mac ppl sae nid bigger table so ask if can change place.. lol.. y did the ppl seatin at the table beside mine went off? arggh! anyway, when i doin the paper2.. suddenly my heart/chest like very 'tight'... then like cannot breathe cannot breathe like tat... was so unconfortable la~ worst is i am ALONE! omg... then finished the last qn and faster go home le.. almost fainted when i walkin up the stairs... when i at 3-4th floor... omg... heng i didnt.. if not, 后果就不堪设想了... anyway.. when i stepped into my hse, really no strengh to greet my ahma le.. but muz ma.. then greeted her, the *bang* onto the sofa.. with my chest/heart hurtin.. damn pain.. opps... :X so slept.. wake up le got better a bit le.. a bit nia~ then finished the paper i did halfway juz nw.. checked through the ans too...

then... my father was like askin me to go see doctor... then i dun wan.. lol.. cuz the doctor i gg to is go show face $30 gone those kind... so i dun wan... so, we'll see how tmr.. if i really cannot take it le then i go... if not, dun go lor~

enough abt todae.. typin sth...
as i have said, dunno how many times... maybe u dunno... but still, i gg become 被动 le... cuz 我想享受一下被动的感觉。。。 wozuhidaoleile feicahngdelei zonhgshixniagbeizuhikeshimeicidoubuxnig nandaoshiwodeanshibugoumnigxain faxainwodexanigfagen'xaingqin'deyexushiyiynagde douxaingbeidnog yexutahaimeizuhidaoleidanwoyijnigleile... to gai kuo, i am tryin to not i_i_i___ the nxt times... keep mum... :X<=like tiz

always had tat little bit of hope.. but todae proved me wrong... 希望越大失望越大... but i tot i xi wang very little le? still so shi wang.. sometimes really wanted to tell you how i felt... but, 就是说不出口... nvm ba.. suan le.. juz carry tat little bit of hope...

and ppl said i cant do sth.. not gg sae who/wat i cant do... anyway, i gonna PROVE YOU WRONG! keep suan-in la.. so pro arh u.. wonder how many point u got for l1r5 last time... sae me still ok la.. but how can u sae tat abt her! so damn bad la... grr! nvm!

sometimes wonderin if my heartpain is cuz of mentally become physically... (did i type tiz be4? hmm.. nvmm) anyway, ya... was so hurt tat time.. then i started havin phycial heartache... tot of tiz cuz tat time someone told me if got anything sad de muz tell, dun keep it to myself or sth like tat... ya.. so tot of tat lor..

ya... tats all... bb...

江`山`易`改`，`本`性`难`移`。。。`
hopes`are`dashed`
i`mean`
hopes`gettin`smaller`and`smaller`by`the`day`

p.s. i love you ...
get well soon... muz... u not well my heart painer... :X

hmm.. todae.. el... didnt want to sit on the chair.. so sat on the floor instead... ppl who dunno me will think i am crazy... but, tats me.. someone who likes sittin on the floor... anyway, almost dozed off during eng... opps... :X

then chi... did 报章报道... hmm... if i did 'o's at tiz speed, i confirm wont finish doin de... and its onli SIX DAYS AWAY! omg.... :'(

then ss.. did reflection abt MY EXAMS... lol.. dunno wat to write... and and my target seems unachiveable.. target was 20 for sbq and 15 for seq... lol.. after i rmb someone saein sbq is can get full marks de, then tot of targettin 20... heh... :]

then went mac after sch... was SUPER HIGH... AND I MEAN SUPER HIGH... omg la... dunno shouted how many times... opps... i've said, gg to be non-emo liao... so i'm juz revertin back to my oldself... which is dunno how many years old liao.. (hmm.. when's its bd?)

then went home... passed the maths test papers to my tution teacher.. and i still cant believe she said my amaths good.. omg la.. 3 more marks to my target leh~ i so said la.. lol.. jkjk... anyway, when i walk back from hm... i walked.. opps... better dun sae... if not i die again...

so, tats all.. bb...

p.s. i love you ...
get well soon.. i mean completely well.. :]

hmm... woke up at 7.44am todae.. if i am not wrong... if i wasnt tat blur as to not c-in clearly...

so took bus go help le... yupps.. muahahaha... go guan then $$ until so shuang.. heh.. accountant eh~ my 2nd choice.. lol... nvm... if u dun understand... heh...

sososo... so funny la.. its like suddenly got loads of ppl.. then no ppl.. then loads of ppl again.. and it goes on.. heh... at least i did sth good todae... :]

and and typin 'my language' again.. lol...
tot of many many outcomes... good ones... bad ones... normal ones... was hopin for one of the good ones to happen... but.. sad thing is... the 2nd worst one 'came true'... so sad la... was super afraid tat it would 'come true' and i really did.. ahh! and and.. nw really dun dare to think abt my wish comin true liao... tats y i said '幻想有那么可怕吗?' in my msn nick... if anyone noticed...

and and... the repeat-song i listenin to nw is 好想他 by 李圣杰... heh... nice lor... :] hehehe...

and... LOVE my phone theme.. muahahaha! though the words cant be seen tat clearly... {someone:muz remind me show u nxt time kae?} hehehehehehehe!

and... decided to start tryin to be optimistic again... cuz... hapi IS better than sad... hehehe!

anyway, bb!

still`needin`a`shoulder`

p.s. i love you ...
'naggin' starts... muz drink loads of water everydae... muz eat 3FULL meals everydae... hehehe!

ren for todae liao.. we'll see how tmr..

anyway, went to my aunt's hse to make mooncakes... lol... imagine... know u cant... heh... surprise surprise... k la.. oso not make la.. juz help weighin and makin the shape thing...

then went for tution.. did another paper.. was stunned when i got back the last week paper... lol.. so super high... to me la.. i can get 38 can tou xiao liao.. then now.. muahahahaha...

maybe i survived todae cuz i was almost busy for the whole dae... yupp.. one day leh! omg.. ren ren ren...

finally told my mum i heartpain... er.. i mean indirectly... then she said i used too much com... omg... nvm..

hope you... wont misunderstand...

tats all... goin slp early todae.. at 12!... lol... tmr's gonna wake up early... at 8(?!)... nid help sell things... i so good rite? *coughs* actually dun wan to go... but to keep myself busy, i goin..


p.s. i love you ...
no matter wat happens, i will still CARE... :]

hmm... todae.. finished two paper2.. finally started doin... lol.. very good liao lor... :X but still, cant believe its NINE days away... if i'm not wrong...

lol.. nth much happened todae... so i dunno wat to post abt todae liao...

wanted to tell u abt my heartache... but u said '等一下'.. therefore i 'gave up'... maybe i shall try later...

tokin abt tat... my heartache... lol.. tot of sth super stupid juz nw... my blog song's 洋葱 ma.. then one of the lyrics is sort of 'tear apart my heart, layer by layer' lol.. sheesh la... damn stupid... tot someone really did tat... literally... lol.. so my heart will pain.. lol.. lol.. and gets painer i mean....

anyway, changin the song to 'when you look me in the eyes' by jonas brothers... yupp.. dunno tiz song how long le though... was mass downloadin eng songs.. then found it nice.. and and.. SURPRISINGLY i listen to eng songs eh~... HEHEHE!

anyway, so, bb...

p.s. i love you ...
my heartache nvm de la... :]

hmm... todae checked marks... lol.. my marks very cool de okay... got a,b,c,d,e and f... and the a/b/c no repetition de lor.. in other words, it means, for example i mean... i have two a1s but no a2, one b3 but no b4 bla bla... yaa... understand le mah? was VERY disappointed in my results.. damn sad... fail 4... FOUR lehx! omg la~ damn sad damn sad... now the onli thing i can do is pray i wont be 'selected' to go for pump... and of course, work HARDER... ya, harder. not softer...

hmm.. someone asked me wat my tat wish is.. hmm.. maybe i should go ask others if my wish got too demandin not first... then maybe i will sae... so, grace chew where are you? lol... jkjk... and it rhymes... lol... :X

and seriously 'needin' someone to yi kao...

realised i tiz year cried a lot a lot.. compared to last year... omgosh... meanin tiz year i emo-er than last year... hmm...

ohya... juz rmb sth... i was so high when i recieved some paper from seow lao shi.. heh heh heh.. oh... tat leads to another thing.. woah! i muz really 'THANK' zn for 'HELPIN' me to tell seow lao shi tat 'hydrogencarbonate's my fav sch la... 'THANKS SO MUCH' eh~ *handshake* omg la..

dunno wat to post liao... so bb..

p.s. i love you ...
'happi guessing'...

emo post, dun read if u dun wan to...

hmm... had chinese todae.. ONLI.. didnt finish doin the two compos.. onli did one... so if tmr is compo again,i do the 2nd part first... yupps.. unless the paper is from ___.. yupps..

anyway, after sch... went potong pasir.. walked many many times.. at a period of time and heart part and stomache pain sia~ omg la.. then had to bend down and walk... but i ren... then walk straight after a while... ya.. and at another period of time i seriously wanted to cry la~ its like i walk walk walk then walk back to the same place.. one time still ok leh.. worse is three times! omg la.. arrrggghhh... should really have bought a street directory with me everytime.. haiz.. finally really experienced '走向没有目的的终点' juz nw...

onli wanted my wish to come true... tot i had already given enough hints.. and made it super obvious... but think i didnt... maybe... dunno la~ juz noe.. i can forget abt my tat wish to come true liao... quite sure it wont... maybe for the rest of my life... unless, i miracle really happens... haiz... damn sad... ahh! 难道我那个愿望有那么难实现吗? ahh! *cries*

anyway, careful leh da jia... i gg to become 被动 instead of 主动 le.. so, wont take the initiative next time.. unless i really really must.. tiz super imp, especially to you ...

and and.. becomin more and more convinced tat many many ppl dun wish to see me or tok to me or even juz listen to me tokin.. yupp... tat time did dunno which sch's paper.. and one of the compre passage is abt 寂寞 de... then ask us how we 'release the lonely-ness' ... i kana stunned.. dunno wat to write.. in the end.. can onli write listen to songs... ahh.. seriously dunno how... gettin 脆弱 liao ma...

can't afford to have and 打击s anymore.. my heart is gettin painer by the day... though the time it hurts is lesser.. but it has become painer and painer... ya... so if i suddenly bend down and press down near my heart area, i 心痛... dun care me oso can.. come ask me i ok a not oso can.. i cant force u to do wat u dun wan to do... ahh.. forget it.. who reads my blog anyway...

am i really such a good 'lullaby'? tok to me can slp de... woah.. next time anyone 睡不着 can come find me sia~ then i tok to u then u slp liao...

seriously i AM a jinx.... tried it out.. tat time was takin bus with kf and zn... then i was sittin dere.. the bus damn long le still haven arrive... then i said if i walk away the bus confirm come liao de.. and true enough, when i started to walk away, the bus came... jinx rite? and todae, wait for the bus for super long.. so many ppl oso... if i didnt board the bus, one more person can board eh~ like tat the person can reach sch earlier eh~ so, i am a jinx liao lor...

problems after problems arrive.. the next arrives before the first one's solved.. am i supposed to lead a life full of problems? or maybe is i think too much..

hao liao... enough of emo stuff.. though got a lot more... but nvm... dun wan post all...

p.s. i love you ...
but still.. maybe i shall believe that miracles can happen...

hmm... no good no good.. todae debrief... ok.. except for chi and maths... arrgggghhh... nvm.. damn sad liao.. my geog and chem.. but at least i improved for my geog.. if i am not wrong...

anyway, to those whom i told the 'toilet joke' to, for ur info, the funny part is when i screamed.. k la.. maybe it isnt funny at all..

nowadays keep tokin to myself.. dunno why.. still got tat feelin tat no one wans to hear me tok.. er.. i mean except some? i think...

seriously la.. ppl dyin liao still dun care.. lol.. tks loads sia.. damn pain one can not? grr! suan le... forget it! arrrrggggghhhhh!

bb...

p.s. i love you ...
he he he... :P >.<

got back eng,chi p1 and ss papers back todae... was only satisfied with my chi ying yong wen marks... then rest damn sad... yupp..

and has chi test juz nw.. finished the paper and left with 7min to check through... lol...

then went home after the debriefs and tests... not home i mean..

went BOON KENG mac again.. to do the chi test paper... do halfway damn sian le... heng someone came.. if not i really dunno wat to do le.. ya... for some reason, my sad sad de feelin gone le.. when i saw someone... heh.. :] could laugh/smile.. the real type... heh.. :] :] :] :D grew taller now.. lol...

then went home, and here, bloggin... ohya... juz now when i in toilet sth super funny happen.. heh... not gg to post... will tell some face-to-face.. lol.. :P

so, tats all.. back to 公主小妹-in... lol.. bb!

p.s. i love you ...
*tickle and wait for a few minutes and asks 还痒吗?* lol.. heh heh heh... ! :P :P :P :P

woah! 223th post.. bloggin now cuz waitin for the 公主小妹 to finish loadin.. yupps.. so nice.. watchin the part when 卓文宣 pop up le..

anyway, went aunt's/grandma's hse juz now.. was so sian at a period of time.. nth to do... then suddenly got motivation(?!) to write, so go copy some phrases from the storybook... nth much.. onli know i eat until super full...

then went for tution... continued writin.. then if i am not wrong the teacher said she cant recognise me? then i so sad la.. omg-ded... damn sad.. anyway, hapi with the results i got for the 综合填空... :] hapi hapi... hope its like tiz tmr.. :]

then reached home.. sort of had a small celebration for mother's day... lol.. bought donuts... then put toothpick with words on it.. heh....

and now, started to watch 公主小妹 again... so, bb! go continue liao...

p.s. i love you ...
do you know tat nvr change ur name? in my phone de...

started watchin 公主小妹 todae... finally la~ watchin episode 5 now... one day 5episode not bed le lor~ yupps..

went compass point juz nw.. returned the library books, then pei me mum 'buy' her bag again... and when i gg home.. received a msg.. seriosly almost cried.. was like knockin myself on the wall.. (or watever u call tat) omg.. realised i so bad.. so shi bai i mean... so _... ahh! *'tears' hair off my head* haiz.. so bad so bad.. 我自己令我太失望了... ahhs!

and while watchin 公主小妹 rmb sth i forgot to post one wed.. :
if i was not standin there, i would have asked if 你可以借我你的肩膀靠一靠吗? ya...

外表越脆弱的人内心其实是很坚强的。。。外表越坚强的人呢，内心其实是很脆弱的。。。 finally understand tiz le.. last time i was so.. normal? now, i so 'cool' ... (get my hidden meanin? if u dont, forget it)

realised after i _, i have become so 'strong'... dun like ppl to console me last time... now, needed someone to stay by my side so badly when i super damn sad.. dun say more le... later i type till i cry... :X

还在等着那一天的到来。。。 如果我不先开口，你及时才会问我_呢?

p.s. i love you ...
told you why le... now... i...

lol... juz changed skin... if got anything strange or sth... tell me kae?then i change... tks...

and changed the song le.. hope you .... will like it.... :]

and juz for ur info... the lyrics... its in traditional chinese though.. if i am not wrong... some are..

如果你眼神能夠為我 片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到 心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇跡
沉默的讓自己 像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心
最角落裡的我 笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我 永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意

聽你說你和你的他們 曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望 裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥 永遠是配角戲
多希望能與你 有一秒 專屬的劇情

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意


如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層 的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意

你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能 聽到我 看到我的全心全意

hmm.. went sentosa todae... sheesh.. was countin how many ppl went.. kept losin count.. .ahh! wats happenin to me?!

anyway, played ball.. dey xia shui.. i didnt... muahahaha! damn sad.. zao zhi dao i bring shirt go... :X

realised my post gettin shorter.. compared to be4 exams..

now one sentence then leave one line liao...

anyway, after hearin wat some ppl said todae.. it got me thinkin.. real hard.. yupp.. 'yet,again' ... 想他们也说得对... maybe i should stop _... but its so damn bad.. wat if _? then like tat how? omg... if not is i too _ liao... (p.s. the blank is not i dun wan put.. is i dunno wat word to use to decribe it) hmm.. so? should i or should i not?

and and.. changin the song to 洋葱 by 杨宗纬... suddenly tot tiz song very very nice.. very very meaningful.. yupp.. for some reason and i dunno why.. anyway.. maybe tiz song's dedicated to someone.. and and and... actually wanted to change to 对不起我爱你 or 我不配... but for some reason want to put tiz song 1st... yupps..

seriously, dunno at to post liao... so, bb... enjoy?!

没`有`一`天`我`是`不`用`被`骂`的`。。。` :'(`

p.s. i love you ...
the sry's for forcin u to go...

hmm.. went out todae.. yays（?! haha)

watched forbidden kingdom.. :] quite nice.. lol.. see la.. watch le now i oso wan learn how fite liao.. lol... jkjk... hehe.. damn cool... heh... :]

hmm... reached home late todae.. cold war again.. sry! :'(

now dunno tmr can go out again not... try-in my luck tmr...

anyway... juz nw plan liao... mon i go sch until 12.15 then go home.. tue and wed reach sch at 9.15.. then dun nid see me humans papers liao... lol... muahahahahahaha!

也许我妈说得对。。。yupp... i no friend... gg become loner liao... next time see me walk alone...

需要一个人陪。。。 or should i start learnin to be super independent?

任命 cuz... i damn emo la... keep thinkin of loads of things until i think too much... yupp, again...

当我以为困难已经解决后，总是会有另一个出现。。。

究竟会有几个人认认真真的听我说话，有信任我呢?

bb...

p.s. i love you ...
tks for always being there :]

hmm... MY EXAM is still damn bad to me... sheesh la~ damn sad now... ahh! y am i even so stupid to think abt... omg...!

anyway, seriously dunno wat to post, so should be dedicatin tiz post to someone ba...

hmm.. sry abt juz now again... but actually cried for many many reasons... studies oso have, the sad thing, the forgetful me. a lot a lot... yupp... after every paper i was like ren-in... cannot cry... 'lol eh then ytd, when i know __, i seriously wan to cry liao but cannot... oso dunno y i so sad... ahh.. was even shocked myself... now i mean... yupp... then todae... all cry out... ok, maybe not all.. .but still, felt tat little bit better... yupp.. and tks for an-wei-in me todae... :] and sry for being so ji dong... sry sry... :X :'(

yupp.. tats all...

一`直`跟`泪`水`打`战`，`但`最`终`我`还`是`败`了`。。。`

p.s. i love you ...
可以借我你的肩膀靠吗?

juz postin to sae,

HAPPY ONE MONTH OLD TO CJ7!!! :]

没`人`信`任`我`了`。。。`
wat the.. i no friend u hapi isit? ppl todae no good mood cannot ar? after knowin tat i like tat cannot ar? grr!
p.s. i love you ...
miss you too...

todae.. woke up early again.. tution... heh... so sleepy dere.. lol... when i walkin back, kept lookin at my left... but didnt manage to... though..

then reached home rest a while then start to mug le... then halfway when i muggin physics, my sis *ahem* taught me hist.. heh.. tks a lot!:] *bows* finally understand better... lol... he he he! then back to study... halfway through start msn-in.. opps... heh... :X

asked me sis to help me buy the laminate paper thing liao.. heh.. tks again.. :] now, dunno whether to juz put like tat/deco.. but deco not original le leh... heh... :S

and now i believe... no one will know if i really hapi or sad... heh.. :] disguse power not bad liao lor.. hehehe... :] yays

anyway, gg to be sick soon.. kept coughin...

yupp... and bb.. go continue study physics liao... bb..bb...

p.s. i love you ...
u know, i kept playin THE SONG from mornin till afternoon.. juz before i change my personal msg to the song thing.. :]
and and.. laminate eh! :P

whee! super high todae... haha.. zn! i grew taller! now taller than u le! :P :X

reached sch at 8plus... then went canteen with ivory, hewei and henry to eat.. breakfast? hmm... yupp.. then went back class studied a little of physics and amaths...

then amaths test... ok la... juz a little difficult... heh... :X opps... sheesh le la.. nvm... got paper2... then chi listenin compre... die too... dun even know wat the passage tokin abt.. omg... EXCEPT THE BE ENVIRONMENTAL-FRIENDLY ONE OF COURSE! haha... aiyoaiyo.. quote"WORX WORX" heh heh... :] love the last two words.. muahahahaha... :]so, i got high again... :]

then went home... lol... so funny the way out... halfway i mean... yupp... zn,kf,me.. walked out together... when walkin halfway, zx/xk asked us to stop... hmm... then xk started SINGING... lol... then i said 'kuai dian zou kuai diao zou' lol... ya... then i 'run' away... and i not bad leh, still got supporter.. lol... JKJK! heh... then kana forced to listen.. lol... KANA FORCED eh~... haha.... then tried to run away, again.. but cant la... lol....

then went boonkeng.. saw tania.. lol... so long nvr tok le.. haha... heng i still lame eh! haha... 江山难改，本性难移 ma。。。 or sth like tat... haha... lol... lol...

then went potong pasir study.. lol... then then around 7plus or sth... zn called me.. muahahaha! finally! :] heh heh heh.. i win liao! yays..! :P

anyway, tks someone for pei-in me again.. :] and for the paper too... and for soooooo much much other things... ! one day isnt enough to type out everything i wan to thank you for.. :] yupp.. gg find my laminatin machine thing liao... go laminate the paper.. heh... :] love it... :] if not i go buy something to keep it nice nice.. then bring it with me everywhere i go... :] heh heh... :] tks tks tks! :] tks! tks!

then went home le... so now, i am here, typin away.... :] yupp...

so hapi todae.. heh... and zn was or might not be surprised when i told her i was damn sad since monday... haha.. not bad eh me! :] pro liao pro liao.. lol.. JKJK! haha...

nth/dunno wat to post liao... so,bb!

you`were`loved`is`being`loved`and`will`be`loved`

p.s. i love you ...
你为我做的一切让我确定我从来都没有做错的决定。。。❤

hmm.. todae... went for tution in the mornin... yupp.. practised one paper.. lol.. ok ba... hope it helps the test tmr.. :]

then afternoon... studied physics.. yupp... surprised tat i would study physics first... but but confirm will prefer physics to hist/geog.. yupp...

tmr goin to reach sch abt 8-8.15.. lol.. damn early... lazy go sch myself ma.. so asked father to fetch.. yupp... planned to study geog/physics and amaths tmr... *wonders wat we have to bring for amaths tmr...* sian sian sian...

hmm.. hmm.. wat more to sae arh? hmm.. hmm...

tks someone for sort of cheerin me up todae.. yupp... felt better after talkin to you.. :] tks... gam-xia... lol.. >.< :]

ohoh... surprised tat i would still be huggin my cj7 now... i mean not very surprised la... juz... for these 15+ years, i ahev NVR hug a soft toy to slp more than 10days... or lesser... lol.. all my soft toys all hug a while then dun hug le... now... without cj7 i cant slp... lol... why ar why ar? nvm.. i 心里有数 can liao... :] :P muahahahaha....

nth more le.. i think... juz good luck to those still havin exams/ haven start.. and gratz to those whose exams end tmr.... :]

迷`失`的`幸`福`鸟`

p.s. i love you ...
就是你。。。