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yellow smilies's cancelled... see i so nice... nvr fan zn liao.. lolx... jk....

anyway, tmr got ne survey... dunno until wat time... hope i can get home in time to pray.. oh... i have tution tmr... sheesh.. hope ne survey's short...

oh.... i didnt talk abt wat happen ytd rite... haha.. funny sia~ ZINC was like scarin me and sae she brought SPIDERS to sch... and put it in a plastic bag ONLI... so easy come out la.. scare me sia~ then after chem then i noe she bluff me... and so, she took out a TOY... centipite pics is on the cover thing... i tot she put the spider inside la.. then she touch, i see hard hard de, then comfirm not liao... then, she took it over to me and ask me to hold it... once i hold then she let go then the thing start to vibrate or wat u call tat... omgosh la.. then i screamed like dunno what... lol... think the whole class can hear la~ omg... scary leh~ 吓到~ lol.. then start trickin everyone... lol... aiya dun sae who kana scare la... lol.. juz a lot.. hahaa!!!
gaga!

CAUTION : those anti-fahrenheit de dun read!
maybe i shouldnt hate him.. maybe i should juz like him... mild likin... would tat be ok? whould things get better? askin me to give tat up is very diff... i think it would take mths... someone i defended for and loved so much.. oh wait, can i call it love? or is it mere admire very much? someone who made me rmb everything abt him... ok, not everything, like birthdate, height, past life blabla... someone who made many ppl know i love him tat much... someone i tried to not like so much once, and succeeded... someone whom i looked at during my sad times to make myself smile... someone who i was super crazy for once... someone whom i always hope i would see once... someone whom i dreamt abt tat dae... someone whom made me make a newspaper cuttin book abt him once... someone whose name is jiro wang...
but still, i can't believe its cuz of him... maybe i should ask the whole world if i really love(?) him too much... maybe i should mass send tmr.. maybe i should.. if the ans i get is yes, my fault. if not, then things are worsen...

succeeded in not emo-in in sch todae... keep forcin myself to forget bout tat...

saw someone emo-in todae. wonder wat happened.. wanted to console tat person... but was afraid that i would make things worse...

tats all... nite everyone, again... good luck for the test tmr~! :]

p.s. i love you ...

ha... postin be4 i go fight with physics... physics test tmr.. good luck GR.. :]

got some feedback todae... happy that they still care... :] hehe... tks zn, kf, gc, sh, wc... :] hehe.. you noe who u are nw... :]

lol... realised many ppl can counsel.. in gr de... i can't! *gaga!* lol.. zn said... the people wont understand me! haha.. tats wat i tot too... lol...

anyway, chi and geog test todae's gg... did badly... haha! kalimantan nvr come out...

wonder if hist seq all 3qns the theme different de not... if different de 就好了 :] study one theme ok liao.. lolx...

wat to sae leh? ohya... was like hi-ing eveyone i know after sch.. lol...

ok, nth le...

tks`my`friends`best`friends`:]`
难`道`这`一`切`就`是`为`了`汪`东`城`？`

p.s. i love you ...

omg... stomach pain for like the whole dae... *gaga!*

eng oral.. flunk... got a band2 for readin.. the passage thing.

sry to those who i emo-ded at todae.... very sry...

ytd... its over? was the first thing i tot... almost cried.. (but i DIDNT!!!) tats why todae i will emo until so bad...

maybe i should play more volley... 打球我会去那个虚拟世界里，什么烦恼都忘了。。。 一回到现实生活中又要面对问题了。。。 但我知道， 逃避不是解决问题的方法。。。 我又想了很多。。。 想那到底是什么意思。。。 想我该怎么做。。。 想我该说什么。。。 想我该怎么说。。。 想， 就一直想。。。 想到我睡着了。。。 以为睡了一场长长的觉， 就会是另一个生命的开始， 但我错了。。。 所以， 我又继续想， 但最终我还是想不到答案。。。 直到我从虚拟世界走出来， 才决定按那些按钮。。。 得到的答案， 一半很开心， 另一半却伤心。。。 这时我又开始想了。。。 总而言之， 今天就是一直想就对了。。。 sry for the 'sheesh' you have to read...

so, todae, some... three actually... asked y i was so emo todae... juz have to sae nth happen, emo for nth... LOL..

there.. thats why i sae chi is easier to 'transmit' my feelings... maybe my eng is poor? dunno la~ juz love the 'art of chi words'...

tats all.. geog test and chi test tmr... geog.. kalimantan and examples give up... or rather, i gave up the whole subject.. for now... FOR NOW...

p.s. i love you ...
真的是要这样吗?

juz a quick type before i go off...

tmr's emg oral... die... lol... imagine someone's not talkin eng for dunno how long then suddenly muz talk... ok la... readin aloud part ok ba... at least i can read those words... its juz picture conversation.. lol.. how would i know wat the person thinkin?! and wat will happen nxt?! every one hi-5? lol.. die sia~

and someone read my black book?! omg... nw still huai yi if is real or fake de.. omg la~ sheesh! gaga!

and geog... sap's good for me... opps.. cuz i nvr study as well? hmm... it good for me la... c la.. now i regret not goin last last week.. whose fault? my fault... lol...

damn full.. opps.. i mean super full... almost vomited juz nw... sian~ slpin earlier than ytd todae...

ohya... i nvr sae i not goin to sae those considered bad words to me de rite? yupp, i didnt mention it in the previous posts... haha.. so you noe liao... if i hit my mouth or sth, means i juz sad something bad...

你变了 我现在都不认识你了 你以前不是很讨厌这些的吗 怎么现在又这样呢 心痛了我 我对你的影像已经变坏了 到底怎么了啦你 失望 sia~

tats all.. bb.. nite.. sweet dreams... :]

oral's`a`boy`

p.s. i love you ...

so now how? *gaga!*

went to watch feet unbound... quite sad actually...

chem spa. played with fruits/veges todae. woah... they can start a stopwatch workin...

then came home... watched 1episode of 恶作剧2吻... then slept when i'm supposed to bathe.. lolx...

found out how insignificant i was juz todae... 简直就在状况之外。。。 woah... now i know why i have a 不祥的预感。。。 it started since i woke up... how great is tat sia~ ohwell... maybe its time for me to get independent... like very...

realised something todae... no wonder i kept wantin tat wish to come true... they are sure better... at least they will ask wat happen to u and stuff... and findin ways to cheer like everyone up... haha.. and so, i wish again.. for tat wish to come true...

ohya. i'm NOT emo anymore... :] hehe... start to think more optimistically liao... :] good eh~ :] hehe...

someone made me smile ytd.. haha.. tks leh~ :P

it doesn't pay to be kind.. but still, i'll be kinder nw...

tryin to change everyone's flaws into their 优点... hmm.. i'll try my best.. :]

the first step to being unemo is not seein/saein tat word... no one's helpin.. worse.. ppl are makin it worse... <= adopted from my friend

好吧... stop le... almost all one liners... lolx...

i'm`usin`my`black`book`again`

p.s. i love you ...

神秘嘉宾:



haha.. nice nice... :]

sheesh... didnt know tat translatin from chinese to eng is so diff... omg... and was thinkin would those help in eng compos? chi can use, eng can meh? lol... nw dunno how liao... 就得走一部算一步了。。。

and was surprised by sth ytd... woah!!! lolx...

almost eveyone believed... hmm... maybe i should start crazy-ing again... maybe i should...

so angry todae la... GRR!!!

maybe havin an idol(s) is good.. at least when i sad i see them/hear their songs, i will feel better...

hmm... is it a good thing or a bad thing?

phone sms:700... 100 more... send 2 more lamer jokes then should be can reach target le ba... hmm...

haha! my jokes arent funny at all... 3ppl proved tat... not lame somemore... so shi bai sia~ lol...

lol... laughed on i-forgot-which-day... laugh until almost cried out.. as in really really sad the cry.. lol.. dunno why... i tot i was hapi then... woah... laugh dao sad cry... 这还是我第一次尝试 eh~

tat day... every dream has a meanin to it... hmm.. wats the meanin of tat dream i had leh? hmm...

ohya.. tat time.. dunno when... tiz week either wed or thurs... lol... i dreamt abt jiro... and fahrenheit of course... lol.. surprise surprise... they like some visitors comin to cch, then got ppl perform for them... lol...

stopped initiatin... we'll see what happens...

tats all... yupp, tiz post's vague i knoe

p.s. i love you ...

there, u have it

tats 伯乐 :] by yoga lin.. nice leh~ haha! post 神秘嘉宾 tmr...

muz watch leh...

rennirengoulerenbuzhulexianzaiqisilela! sidapianyitiao

tats all.. forgot wat i wanted to post...

p.s. i love you ...
glad

lol... 2nd post for the day.. nth to do... lol...

forgot bring physics tb home... nxt week test 3chap.. how i choing 3chap in 2 days? and somemore is the worst 3chaps... gaga~!

anyway, yoga's songs really very nice!!! :] hehe... yoga~yoga~yoga!!! :]

nw i'm worried for my eng oral.. super dunno how to talk in eng!!! and i think it sounds guai guai de leh~ lol... nvm... jiayous to myself!!! haha! so colleague is colleague instead of colleague.. omgosh.. last time pronunce correctly de lor~ then now wrong liao... then muz change back.. lol... and and wednesday is when's day... found it funny.. haha.. as in how the third day of the week can be when is day... lol.. hmm... got feelin ppl wont understand... :X

andand... someone told me 不要为了一条鱼而放弃真个海... so, apply it to my combined humans.. dun cuz of hist then give up the whole subject... muz pia hist.. and do well in it!!! i must believe with the help of teachers, i can do it! lol.. self psychology... lol! :]

oh, btw, jiro's still my first fav... :] <3 haha!

ohya... so, seow lao shi knows i always fight with zn... she got see before somemore leh... woah!!! *stunnnnnnnns*

hmm... 好吧.. go slp liao... if not i knock my head again.. lol... nite ppl!!! :]

i`believe`that`you`do`not`know`that`i`know`
since`the`first`day`

p.s. i love you ...

fire drill todae... gosh... my 3'wallpapers' are "burnt"... lol... dun understand nvm.. but u ask me oso can... lol...

lol... lesser ppl understand my lame jokes le... haha... maybe they are too lame... lol...

anyways, suddenly like yoga... very like.. started from the day before ytd i think.. which is 22 july... lol.. dunno why... haha...

andand.. nw, if got a lot of ppl hate me, i can accept the fact.. who would like someone who will shriek(?) at anything? who would like someone who tickles you whenever you said sth bad abt his/her idol? bla bla bla... so, i wont be surprised if many hate me...

and and... eng.. doin quotes from songs... hope can use chinese songs then translate to eng.. forgot double quadruple check with ms k... if can, then i win liao...

anyways, video cam-ded yoga's mv... haha.. nw can watch it anywhere i want.. gaga!

hmm.. wat to post leh?

ohya.. chem sap is the most effective sap for me so far... :]

tats all... maybe i'll change song to 伯乐 by yoga tmr... and post the lyrics too... :]

jiro`jiro`jiro`
yoga`yoga`yoga`
:]`:]`:]`

p.s. i love you ...
sry i interpreted it wrongly...

oh gosh... slacked for the whole dae todae... sheesh... nvr concentrate... omg.. maybe i did for a period during hist... and the few minutes of ss... omg.. i so bad...

anyway, wrote lyrics and some i-dunno-wat-u-call-tat juz nw... and wrote all the qian bian wen da ti on a foolscap le.. currently have 6qns... and realised some were really very lame... lol... lamer ma.. haha!

the i-dunno-wat-u-call-tat that i wrote :
its just 'mornin' and 'nite'
just two words we said
when others ask abt u
i wouldn't know wat to say

countless times i wished
wished you were right here beside me
countless times i hoped
hoped i would meet you somewhere

all my hopes and wishes were dashed
when my messages were not replied
i'll always tell myself lies
to console me over it

now i wouldn't dare to sms u
when its all emoticons
i was afraid that you would sae
the thing that i was afraid to hear

lol... then cant think liao... haha! long time nvr write a long long eng thing... as in not compo all tat.. aiya... dunno how sae la... lol... see how bad my command of eng is...

tats all i think.. nth much.. so, bb... copper!

93`days`to`o`levels`

p.s. i love you ...

lol... todae's super fun.. haha! :]

so, reached class.. went change... lol... in the toilet super funny la... gchew guessed all our plans... then we were like screamin in the toilet.. super loud... lol... haha... and we(some) sang the married song when we walk into class.. super funny.. haha!

then during recess time.. cam whore started... lol... kept takin pics and pics and pics... haha! :D and it continues during physics lesson... lol.. asked mr gan to take with us... took loads of pics... woah! lol.. wan see the pics lehx...

then lunch.. took with many other ppl tat time... first time i take so much and is i initiate de leh... woah! woah! woah! lol... haha! fun sia... takin photos after photos.. lol... see la.. now i addicted to it.. all tks to me... lol.. jkjk... not addicted arh....

lol... first time let down hair in sch for like the whole dae... lol... ohoh.. and wear slippers too... hehehe...

can't explain my feeling well... lol... cuz its unexplainable... gaga!

ohwait.. duno why i start saein gaga nowadays... omgosh la!

anyway, durin assembly.. someone asked me a yes/no qn... and i realised i really dunno the ans... its so hard... tried askin.. typed the whole LOONG msg out... but juz can't press the send button thing... ahh.. let todae decide.. if i received then. if i dont, then... (tsktsk.. surprisingly u noe when i emo... i was shocked at how u noe when u sae tat... lol.. many ppl dunno.. i think.. lol...)

and my wish dunno counted as come true le not.. lol... after todae, maybe it came true.. juz for todae.. haha! :X

tats all... byeBYE everyone..

p.s. i love you ...

a simple yes/no qn, but i cant ans... how sad...

264th post...

sat... went out with some gr ppl to buy ethnic costumes... lol... met at sing post... kf and xw arrived first.. then xk, then cyn and zx... then went mac... then went to search for clothes.. lol... cant imagine how ppl managed to shop for one whole dae.. its onli half the dae and i'm already tired... woah.. pro to the ppl, i shall sae... anyways, it was fun... with thr gr ppl its always fun.. haha.. :]

then went back home.. was abt 6plus already... lol... i juz boom onto the bed ans slept(again)... haha.. woke up at 7... then after dinner my family was eat durians.. lol... after everyone finished eatin i was like guessin how many seeds there is.. i guessed 33.. but the ans's 36... omg la... 3 more then i correct liao...

then todae.. did the amaths and maths papers... tot tmr will have maths.. then went check timetable, dun have... lol... to think i still choing until siao... ok, not choing-ing but i can study hist instead.. oh well...

then i was mass sendin supposedly unlame lame jokes juz nw.. sent 2 then phone no batt... lol.. will continue tmr if i have the time... haha! anyway, i realised those unlame lame jokes are lame after all... many ppl smsed back saein tat they are cold.. haha! dunno if i sent to everyone though.. got one time my phone dunno wat happen then cant send.. then i dunno i sent to who already... so might not have sent to all...

maybe i should write all these lame jokes i tot... then nxt time i old le then read.. then can see how lame i was before... haha! alrite.. i SHALL do tat.. :]

packed my file juz nw... lol.. used back the old file instead of leavin a stack paper flyin around... its neater now.. :]

ohya... tat time my class's fan sort of spoilt... then went go report... and half to pay a sum of money.... if not, someone will go check and tell us the exact amt... then coincidentally, the nite when i slpin... i dreamt abt it.. lol... someone was tellin us we have to pay $83... tats wat i rmb, vaguely... lol... so qiao la... wonder if it's true.. haha!

omg.. its already 20th and i haven watch hancock.. omgomg... lazy to sit in front of com and watch leh... arggghhh! oh wait... dere's a class outin for it rite... haha!

tats all... byebye! dmm! haha! jkjk!

sendin`lame`jokes`make`me`smile`
maybe`i`shall`do`tat`more`often`

p.s. i love you ...
the first thing i tot, woah. an sms received... the nxt thing i tot, did u send wrongly?

seow lao shi nvr come todae... :( so sad.. :(

anyways, ss test todae... lol... was like crappin and writin no link stuffs on my ans sheet la... lol.. nvr study = dunno wat to write = write no link.. ya... didnt wan to cheat... (see. i so guai... lol.. jkjk) so ss test's over...

and and class photo.. realised something creepy and funny and amazing abt it... dere's a pair of floatin eyes between kelly and seow lao shi... scary eh~ and and... the eyes is pop up the la.. as in u touch the surface of the photo deres like 2 pops poppin out.. (am i understandable?) wonder if the photo we take will have tat not.. lol.. and and i rmb i said later the eyes gets more pop-ier by the day.. so tmr go touch the part poppin out pops out more... lol... nw tiz paragraph sounds like some 绕口令 or sth.. lolx...

and physics spa... dunno if correct not.. damn scared wrong la... omg...

and and will get cheena results after national day.. hmm... wonder wat i will get... hmm...

was thinkin whether if i wan go back mts after national dae celebration.. hmm.. dunno leh... maybe ask some ppl first lor~

lol... 自问自达-ing

super tired nw.. but hair's still wet, so can't slp nw.. :( argghh! i nid my slp! lol... sounds er...

is dere physics test nxt week? lol... i kinda have sth 'faded' memory abt some physics test or sth... oh wait, or did i mix up chem and physics?

ohya.. forgot post abt wat my tution teacher sae... lol... super funny... she told me she haven ask me wat my ambition is.. then she sae 'medicin?' then i was stunn-ded... and then NO! *thinks omg* and sae psychologist/accountant... lol...

buyin yoga's album tmr... if not my $20 gone liao... oh.. btw, if u dunno, yoga is a singer, otherwise known as 林宥嘉。。。 so dun think i go learn tat yoga yoga... i is buy the yoga yoga.. lol...

oh... those who reads my blog... warn u first.. tmr maybe i'll spam ur inbox with un-lame lame jokes i come out with myself... lol... so, be prepared... (p.s. i no choice but to do tiz.. have to use my sms till 800plus.. if not 后果就不堪设想... hmm.. think onli zn knows the hou guo) but anyway, prepare lehx...

tats all... i think... haha~

郭静's`songs`are`nice`

p.s. i love you ...

it hurts..

(hey! tiz post is un-emo! :])

geog test todae... hope i can pass... but it needs a miracle..

dere's ss test, chi ce yan and physics spa tmr.. gave up ss.. cuz i know i can't finish studyin in 2hr... so, gaved up... and i realised i kept mixin up the facts from geog and ss... geog. of food and globalisation.. mixed up... lol... anwyay, i DID study for geog.. and i really DID memorise sths.. SOME arh... ya...

and and.. forgot sae last time, saw THREE 31s together.. as in one after another... three leh.. miracle sia.. and somemore 2 is double deck de... lol..

had tea session todae.. lol.. so funny la... was almost laughin for the whole lesson.. after i finished emo-in... (sry kj, zn, gc, kf... i really tried to not emo.. but tat sentence kept poppin up...) anyway, its good to have someone who will always cheer u up when u are down... :] tks gr.. :]

lol... these few daes suddenly many ppl asked wats my ambition... haha... funny... psychologist or accountant.. lol... seem so far... kae nvm.. no one noes wat i tokin...

and and... lesser ppl listenin to wat i tok le... i can confirm, if i missin or sth no one would notice... ya... maybe tats my retribution... if it last for the rest of my life, how gd would tat be... i die(opps), no one know... tats very good...

but anyway, woulnt wan to die so young.. cuz i still have one wish tat haven come true... after so long... but wait, tat wish muz wait until get older than can... hmmm...

ohya.. todae during geog test kept askin myself loads of qns.. ok, not loads, some.. lol.. 'wats green revolution?' 'gm food is wat?' lol.. in the end i 自问自达... but answer by writin..

things are gettin worse nw... would not talkin lead to seperation?

tats all.. bb... nite..

放`弃`了`
emo`lamer`back`again`

p.s. i love you ...

arggghh!!! geog test on thurs but haven study yet!!! :'( arggghhh!!!

and the eng project... omg!!! so much things to do!

oh sheesh! forgot! tmr's chem spa! sh*t! wheres my notes? arggghhhh!

die liao... todae's listening... die... tmr's spa.. die... thurs geog test... die... fri's spa.. die...

wat is good in my current life sia...

got dao-ded twice... and still sae tat...

tats all.. back to emo-in and fustratin and findin and studyin and watever-in

p.s. i love you ...
the feelin's stonger and stronger...

ahhhh! prelims timetable's given out todae... omg... from 28/8 to 8/9 no test leh... such a BIG gap lah.. *gasps* and and physics and ss on the same dae... lol... jia yous man... lol.. die liao me... omg...

tmr's cheena listenin le... scary.. last 10%... the 10% tat will decide whether i pass or fail... scared le... :'( omgomg... hope i can relax tmr... *breathe in breathe out*

anyway, juz to talk abt eng last sat... after tat when to eat with ms k... :] heh heh... <3 style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">:] lol... 6ppl in a car... haha! fun fun fun... and the song thing.. haha! :] and and all the gossips(?)... lolx... HAHAHA!

and todae... chem spa was sooooooooo fun la! electrolysis... maybe it wont be the topic i hate most anymore... :] haha! nvm... still confused at the anode and cathode thing.. is anode the positive side? ok, nvm... maybe... MAYBE i will post the pics... MAYBE onli.. haha.. higher chance i wont.. so if u wan the pics, tell me... then i email u all or sth?nvm... who comes to my blog anyway

should stop deceiving myself... all the stuffs i said to console myself... should really stop tat... and muz 面对现实 liao... haix... *jiayous jiayous* nvm.. emo 的事讲比较少比较好。。。

lol... more and more ppl sae i look emo/sad again... and ppl kept askin if i am ok... lol... do i really look tat emo? hmm... maybe i should put a video cam in front of me... then i will noe how i look MOST OF THE TIME... emo/un-emo...

ohya... had a fierce FIGHT with zinc in sch... lol... solid and gas... who will win leh? hmm... and realise juz todae tat we were really noisy in class.. opps! :X anyway, it all started when zinc hit my leg... hmm.. forgot if i did do anything be4 tat... lol...and and.. kept kana 'hitten' so, i move my table to the side.. then still can hit dao, then i moved behind more... then my pencil box almost kana taken... then managed to save it.. then wallet kana taken.. then one by one my things were THROWN back... then liquid taken.. omg la.. when the cap was THROWN back, the drop-on-the-floor sound was so super loud la... think even the ppl outside can hear... omg... pity my cap... lol... todae really was a fierce FIGHT.. and really wonder y teachers wont believe tat zinc got 打我 de lor... like so many ppl sae the same thing la... omg... y? nxt time muz ask someone to help video... hmm...

anyway, these few days for some reason and i dunno why, suddenly wan go back mts and see dance... dunno why leh... wan see... hmm... wonder if the instructor still rmbs me... hmm... and maybe i can join their dance too... :] maybe i should sms ___ omg.. later my sms explode... opps... wonder if the instructor got change.. and wat they got for syf.. hmmm.... teacher-in-charge too...

oh.. and forgot to talk abt class photo takin... haha.. quite long ago anyway... ya.. the candid shot.. omg.. .my head kana pressed down... and they took the pic while i was STRUGGLING to push myself up... lol... nw i wonder how my pose look like.. lol... sounds funny... HAHA!

tats all.. quite a long post compared to the past few... i think...

原谅需要时间<= wat i saw on tv...
时间要多长呢?

the truth is brutal...

p.s. i love you ...

countless days... countless tears... countless emotions.. countless... countless.. countless...

hmm... juz finished readin SOME organic chem stuffs... lol... my fav topic... lol... fav topic still cannot rmb everything... and chem test's tmr... nvm... continue memorisin tmr... erm... i'll try later i mean...

and and... stressed someone out juz nw.. lol... wanted to but she confirm dun have... lol... was saein tiz will decide my life.. then ask a yes/no qn... and so, i shall be a LONER liao... seriously damn emo todae...

skill3's nxt week... omg... sounds scary... kae, nvm...

and to think of tat, now super scared i will be ignored/avoided/sth related to tat... cuz tats wat i felt tiz few daes...lol... let me go think later... and CONFIRM it will be my fault... cuz EVERYTHING's my fault de...

kinda regrettin makin all those qns things... lol... everything makes me even sadder.... and nw i cant emo in sch... how long muz i put up tat FAKE hapi smile? when can i start emo-in without affectin other ppl?

tot i would 'walk past tiz obstacle' super easily... but i am wrong... the cause of eveything seems to be me... ok, maybe its not 'seems to' should be 'IS'...

forget my emoness... in tiz post... i will continue to put tat 'genuine' smile tmr... and continue to be lame... and make myself have more pinches...

tats all... bte,back to emo-in...

失败者，我有罪。。。

p.s. i love you ...
ya, and i'm afraid of tat too... 13th day todae... or maybe tat dae changed eveything and it should be 5th day instead?

woke up with a super pain headache todae...

woke up super late..

slpt for like 12hrs AGAIN...

and new motto for me : wont cry anymore...

after READIN 1100words.. realised cant is a word... so nxt time dun use tat le.. i'll put tat ' dere...

and the typical me, thought again todae... and realised sth...

and the thing i tot... got evidence to support it...

and super loads of evidence too...

if u ask, i'll tell... c who u are first lor~ ok, to tell the truth, maybe i would onli tell one person... cuz onli he will know wat i'm talkin abt...

and tat person will confirm agree on the sentence i tot...

ok, tats wat i think...

tats all...
i am such a bad girlfriend....
p.s. i love you ...
there it is...

ha! i've decieded... from nw on, all smilies will be in YELLOW! juz to irritate someone... haha! :P opps... later i kana pinched again.... :X


anyway, slp at 5AM ytd... can't slp at all! kept turnin and turnin... and of course, my 'hobby', kept thinkin abt loads of stuffs... for some reason, i can link everything together... strange/un-strange oso can la~ omg...

and after tat, was super confused... ok.. actually i already was when i was walkin up the stairs to home... after peepin... ya... and was thinkin whether to send tat email... hmm... still thinkin nw, maybe i shall send a belated one later... haix...

oh.. and everytime i want to walk in the rain, something will always happen to make me unable to... like last week, when i was walkin hm... i tried to walk.. but then, the rain became smaller and smaller until no more rain.. and i like walk only a few steps la... argghh...

and for some reason, my ipod seems to know my mood... when i emo then shuffle songs then almost all sad sad songs... and when i normal then mixed... i hapi, oh... tiz i dunno... sry... cuz loooooooooooong time no hapi le.. opps... :X yala... like nw, playin 难道 when i am emo-in... opps... :X

everytime i look out of the window, how much i wished u were dere... though its tat far, but its good enough already... at least it is better than not seein at all...
everytime i walk past there, how much i wished u were gg home too...
everytime on the 5th of each mth, how i wished a miracle will happen... kae.. maybe i shouldnt call it a miracle... juz tat i cant think of anymore words... anyway, it happened once... how i wish it will happen again...
everytime i think abt you ... how much i wished i had not been so silly in the first place...

super confused nw.. arrrgggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!

p.s. i love you ...

should i or should i not? bs...

lol... dunno wat to blog... so blog abt todae ba...

lol... alarm clock rang at 9 but i woke up at 9.10... opps? omg.. wearin contacts took me loads of time... lol.. dunno got wear wrong nort... haha... nvm... onli i understand... lol... anyway, ya.. walked out of hse... oh... i didnt sae i gg chs, did i? nvm... so, went dere.. lol.. for some reasons i dun dare go in... dunno why... to think last time i always wanted to have a chance to go into a BOYS SCH... then nw dun dare... lols... then call zn... and finally dared to go in... then nth to do, cuz waitin for friend.. then walk around... then saw someone familiar.. but tat person's runnin, so, oh well... maybe i really did see wrongly... tats wat i keep tellin myself... then walk out.. walk around outside the sch.. then went in again... lol...
then walked somemore.. TOT i saw someone familiar again... but then the person looked away, so, again, maybe i see wrong again... then waited for my friend...

ya... funny... cant find each other while we are behind each other.. i think... cuz i turn le then saw him... lol... then the first thing i tot... woah.. so tall le?! but ya... so long nvr see le la.. then walked around.. find some friends tat i know there... lol... {zn! i didnt eat breakfast and lunch leh! :P haha! todae cannot stop me le leh~ :P :P :P <=tats the YELLOW smiley... :]} anyway, back to topic... then walked again... didnt noe tat the sec sch and the pri sch got so near de leh... haha~ wanted to go haunted hse.. then loads of ppl... then continue walkin... ya... then walked alone a while... then someone sms-ded... then find another friendS... then sat a while to wait... then go j8.. wanted to buy pencil box for my cousin then not nice... so went home...

so, in a nutshell, todae is much much much much better than i expected... tats was when i started being 'un-lonely'... to think i was even hesitatin to go out todae... but since i told ppl i gg, so i will go... heh!

peep-ded todae... looked from far... my hidin skills are better nw... turn then step back.. ha! onli i understand...

tats all... bye! those who ever comes my blog!

p.s. i love you ...
i was quite surprised todae...

hmm.... had a looooooong talk(usin paper) with zn todae... lol...made me think a lot again... is the fish being strangled by me? my hands are too stiff.. i cant even open it up... juz thinkin onli can make me have teary eyes le... i cant act... seriously i cant... dun dare? dun wan? dunno leh... sry zn and gc... sry... but i really cant... this is the first time i ever _____ _ ______ tat much... lookin through all the papers and the smses juz nw... (nort i dun study arh... but i really dunno how do hist.. pity the tb... i turn until wan drop out liao... okay... i'm exaggerating) wait arh.. let me lame a while... both of u really 心有灵犀一点通 lor... lol... back to topic... tats why i lead to tiz decision... (zn, gc: i'll fill u up tmr... remind me bring loads of water...)

and and... cj7 damn sad liao... cuz i everyday hug him so tightly... but then, he's already very lucky cuz i didnt wet him with my tears...

and and.. die liao die liao... dun know anything abt seq... dun even know how to do intro para... sheesh la! ss still okay lor.. hist die... dun even know got wat factors or wat u call tat... omg... die die die! someone better than me(which is like everyone) at hist, help me pls! ahh! lugubrious liao... oh... a word learnt and rmb from 1100 words... haha! next time i ___ use tiz words liao.. looks chim-mer... and cant see the meanin from the surface...

sheesh... forgot wat i wan to type...

argghh.. nvm... tats all then... bb... early nite...

p.s. i love you ...
again, if i dun get a reply, i'll get ur hint...

sheesh...

hist... 3 essays... dun wan do... pass up by tiz thurs... sheesh...

1100 words... left the 'un-weekly' part... pass up by tiz fri.. still okay...

amaths geometrical proof... dun understand... sheesh...

'o's... abt 4mths more... haven started... sheesh...

tiz year... die liao...

haha~ nobody knows wat i am thinkin nw.. i emo they oso dunno.. yays?

alone again... nowhere to go... seems like i dun fit in anywhere eh~

will continue doin tat... until i get a reply...

kept waitin for a reply... day and nite... but i still dun eat one... and its the 4th dae...

kae nvm... everyone dunnos wat i tokin abt...

in fact, think no one reads my blog la... LOL...

tats all... bb...

p.s. i love you ...
waitin waitin waitin...