emo post, dun read if u dun wan to...
hmm... had chinese todae.. ONLI.. didnt finish doin the two compos.. onli did one... so if tmr is compo again,i do the 2nd part first... yupps.. unless the paper is from ___.. yupps..
anyway, after sch... went potong pasir.. walked many many times.. at a period of time and heart part and stomache pain sia~ omg la.. then had to bend down and walk... but i ren... then walk straight after a while... ya.. and at another period of time i seriously wanted to cry la~ its like i walk walk walk then walk back to the same place.. one time still ok leh.. worse is three times! omg la.. arrrggghhh... should really have bought a street directory with me everytime.. haiz.. finally really experienced '走向没有目的的终点' juz nw...
onli wanted my wish to come true... tot i had already given enough hints.. and made it super obvious... but think i didnt... maybe... dunno la~ juz noe.. i can forget abt my tat wish to come true liao... quite sure it wont... maybe for the rest of my life... unless, i miracle really happens... haiz... damn sad... ahh! 难道我那个愿望有那么难实现吗? ahh! *cries*
anyway, careful leh da jia... i gg to become 被动 instead of 主动 le.. so, wont take the initiative next time.. unless i really really must.. tiz super imp, especially to you ...
and and.. becomin more and more convinced tat many many ppl dun wish to see me or tok to me or even juz listen to me tokin.. yupp... tat time did dunno which sch's paper.. and one of the compre passage is abt 寂寞 de... then ask us how we 'release the lonely-ness' ... i kana stunned.. dunno wat to write.. in the end.. can onli write listen to songs... ahh.. seriously dunno how... gettin 脆弱 liao ma...
can't afford to have and 打击s anymore.. my heart is gettin painer by the day... though the time it hurts is lesser.. but it has become painer and painer... ya... so if i suddenly bend down and press down near my heart area, i 心痛... dun care me oso can.. come ask me i ok a not oso can.. i cant force u to do wat u dun wan to do... ahh.. forget it.. who reads my blog anyway...
am i really such a good 'lullaby'? tok to me can slp de... woah.. next time anyone 睡不着 can come find me sia~ then i tok to u then u slp liao...
seriously i AM a jinx.... tried it out.. tat time was takin bus with kf and zn... then i was sittin dere.. the bus damn long le still haven arrive... then i said if i walk away the bus confirm come liao de.. and true enough, when i started to walk away, the bus came... jinx rite? and todae, wait for the bus for super long.. so many ppl oso... if i didnt board the bus, one more person can board eh~ like tat the person can reach sch earlier eh~ so, i am a jinx liao lor...
problems after problems arrive.. the next arrives before the first one's solved.. am i supposed to lead a life full of problems? or maybe is i think too much..
hao liao... enough of emo stuff.. though got a lot more... but nvm... dun wan post all...
p.s. i love you ...
but still.. maybe i shall believe that miracles can happen...
11:24:00 PM
