finally bloggin after so long... lol...
genting was ok ba... funner than the other times when i went dere... bought loads of things... for myself, onli bought one 'phone-chain', soft toy, belt and chocs...
and bought a new BILLABONG pencil box.. its BIGGER than the old one... and of course, less girly than tat.. at least it doesnt have a flower on it... :] *yays*
and was doin maths juz nw... super stressed or watever u call it... found out i forgot loads of things.. r formula... differentiation... integration.. the circle thing... loads more.. damn sad la! :'( nvr study maths for 1week + then like tat liao... :'( damn sad... was almost wantin to shout.. do one qn skip one qn... sad liao... (p.s. if u ever see me studying esp when i doin some papers or sth, you should know i will like tat de.. if i dunno how do...)
and was tokin to A juz nw... tats wat A said:" tot of all the talks i had with other ppl... and was thinkin... should i really stop doin all these stuffs and juz revert back to my old self. i mean stop changin myself for the sake of other ppl... since they might not be able to appreciate it.. and maybe stop doin those crazy stuff tat i did for the other party..."
then i startin think a lot liao.. again.. y are some ppl so concerned abt other ppl's feelings and are willin to do anything juz to maintain tat smile on their face? y would they rather bleed loads 'inside' than tell other ppl their tots to lessen their pain? y are they willin to keep awake even though they know wat they are doin for others might not be appreciated and the thing they did might even be found in the dustbin the minute(or even second) after its given to others? y are ppl willin to have a drastic change juz because the other party like it tat way? y? y? y?
and on the 'other side', y are some ppl juz so oblivious of wat other ppl done for them? y do they not give other ppl happiness like wat they have done? y dont they go find out wat other ppl are feelin right now and 对症下药? y dont they find out other's character/watever u call tat and treat them better? y do ppl think of the hurt other ppl have caused them and not think of the hurt they have caused other ppl?
and the qn, "if ur other half and one of ur parents fall into the river, who will u save first?"was thinkin abt it too... hmm... maybe i'll save the one that is willin to sacrifice their life and let me save the other one... if both are willin, save one le then ask god to allow me to 'trade' my life with the other one whose still in the water.
and and dunno whether i've said tiz be4, but, 一个人流浪's my fav song. not because its sung by fahrenheit, but because its very nice... and also cuz i listen for so long le still not sick of tat song... so, i really really like it... and maybe its also cuz its an emo song... or sad...
and and and.. can i be selfish once/again and have someone, all by myself, whose willin to have a heart to heart tok with me, and help me solve those problems and not get affected by me? cuz, maybe i really needed tat... i mean, i really need that...
tats all... cuz not everything can be said.. bb...
personA:try not to bottle everything up...
personB:i cant. i am those kind of ppl tat will bottle everything up, till the bottle overflows...
u've`changed`
p.s i love you ...
8:11:00 PM
