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haha~ celebrated 教师节 todae... so high la.. the CHAIR AEROBICS! lolx.. was like stompin like mad.. haha! then the whole projector shake.. then at one point then i stop stompin.. then like got earthquake like tat.. haha! fun sia~

then.. the long service award... haha... funny... SCREAMED for our teachers! hahax.. :] and seow lao shi's got MOST CARING TEACHER AWARD!!! :] :] :] hehe.. :] then we STOOD UP and SCREAMED... haha.. :] fun lehx...

then volleyed a while~ :] gosh... my volley skills still lan la.. sigh.. after 'o's PIA~ lolx...

a review on the prelims i took...
eng : same.. either juz pass or fail..
emath : gosh! my 36/36=0!!! :(
physics : erm....
ss : arrgh! spent 1/2 hr on ONE C+C QN!!! too long..
chinese : so many time left for paper2.. makes me feel scared... paper 1... letter no good... compo.. maybe?
human geog : aha! GG! 'how alleviate prob of malnutrition and starvation..' wat i asked zn in class.. lolx...

and todae... 2 new BRUSIES! done by 'a VERY calm person'... pain sia~ juz nw... :X

nxt time should slp everytime i emo.. then wake up then not so emo liao.. :]

and.. was thinkin.. if a teacher saw my 25th aug post.. then the teacher will feel guilty liaox.. :P

tats all...

6`more`papers`to`go`~`
dun`wan`stay`at`home`for`holi`

p.s. i love you ...
sry bout ytd.. my fault my fault.. nvr 管理 my mood well...

was almost knocked down by a motorcycle ytd.. the moto horned.. and i thought it was like from a super far car.. and was thinkin woah, the car so pro, horn so loud.. then the moto drove past me.. and the driver stared! gosh.. super sry sia~ maybe i was too...

anyways, todae.. cheena test.. paper 1.. tiz time my letter write until very bad le.. comfirm wont score high marks le.. then 记叙文... haha... "天下无不散之筵席"... then write abt someone who 离开 you.. write super long tiz time.. 4 pages plus one para... ahh... almost cried when writin... wonder if got anymore mts ppl who rmb her... missed+missin sia~ after abt 5yrs? le... still will cry de.. 她的 impact 真的是很大...

was lookin at the sky juz nw.. how i hope she would like pop up right in front of my eyes... then can talk to her.. tell her a lot of things... dunno y i will like tat... 好久好久好久没有看到她了。。。 :(
[ha. i know you will sae y i so stupid dao will do these kind of things. WATEVER!]

and so.. so tired of tellin ppl they not disturbin me liao... so, if someone sae it again, i will 'orh. kae. cu'... even though i AM super bored tat time...

and realised the word i hate most is 'watever'... but not those 'or watever u call tat' la~ so if i use it... ya... meanin i super agitated/angry/any other words tat can describe it... used it.. todae...

grr... no matter wat i do i will always will kana suan de.. every single thing... ok, maybe not every.. but mostly.. haix.. sad sia~

dunno wat to sae le.. last words.. i AM emo todae..

p.s. i love you ...
paiseh~

gosh... can't rmb any ss/physics stuff... maybe except for the physics formulae... ohwell, maybe the berlin blockade(?) moved to my brain...

memorised. i tried. use watever ways the nxt hr i forget everything le! :'( my brain needs a BIGGER thumbdrive... argggh!

dun wan study liao lor like tat. grr... nvm.. i go study physics ONLI. attempt the ss seq if i noe how to do~

the worst is, super tired nw... wan slp liao.. maybe tats why berlin came... close my hse 3sec then can slp liao.

tats all... better close com be4 i slp on the com.. save electricity.. lolx..

p.s. i love you ...
tks for todae:] and and... 50yrs old arh

so.. went to school to type things.. haha.. hope i improve my typin skills liao... then nxt time type like 100words per minute.. lolx.

then went mac study a while. was surprised then.

then went tution. which lasted for abt 2 and a half hr or more... tired. forgot abt geog. so i am back to study geog.

quite sad todae... very i mean... first time my friend sae tat. gosh.. sad.. sad... sad... :'( 为什么是你?

虽然我很‘男’但我始终还是个女生。 听到那个字， 自然就会很伤心。。。 like demoralise like tat.. 超伤心的。。。 nvm... not ur fault anyway... 这样也好。 at least i know it now...

haha... here comes my 减肥大计划。。。
1) no eating of food after 8pm. unless i super hungry until no eat then want die like tat.
2) no chocs.(gosh... my fav kana cut off)
3) when eating cakes, dun eat the cream
4) eat half of wat i eat everyday.
5) no chips.
6) sweets muz not have much sugar, otherwise known as unsweet sweet
7) no fast food, unless no choice.
8) cut down on fried food.
9) excercise like every other day.
10) durin holidays, find someone to pei me excercise like everyday.. (volley volley.. :])
11) walk up the stairs everyday, no matter how tired i am
12) if i have time, walk home from boon keng. everytime.

will update tiz when i still can think of anymore...

yupp.. tats all... jiayous everyone for any paper you havin tmr...

不`想`活`了`

p.s. i love you ...
maybe i should thank you... so, THANK YOU! :]

hmm.. received an email todae... and for some reason... dunno y.. found it meaningful juz todae.. part of it..

love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but to understand,
not to hear but to listen,
not to let go but to HOLD ON!!!

don's ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
who holds your hand in front of his friends.
wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'

yupp... i read liao was thinking... haha! my thoughts will not be revealed. :P maybe some of u can guess.. lolx..

tats all.

human`geog`is`unsoft`!!!`
arggghhh~
tsktsk... some things i wished's dere...
p.s. i love you ...

gosh.. sth i juz found out... dunno the details though... some doomsday thing on 2012... and suay suay muz fall on my BIRTHDAY.. lol... and then was thinkin if like tat oso quite cool... birth day and death day same de.. lolx... JKJK! and if it really is, then i onli live till 20years old... gosh.. 100more years to go... anyway... after wat i asked my mama, i dun believe tt liaox... lolx~

and todae practically slack for the whole dae.. did 6qns of chem... ONLI! omgosh...

and was thinkin wat's the meanin of 'sia la'... lol... muz ask 清楚 first be4 i use...

and yupp.. dunno y... these few days started to like staring outside the window... especially when it is rainin... if i in livin room, for some reason i in the end will look at the top right side de.. and if in room then top left... maybe i dun really like... is cuz... maybe... maybe... probably i mean...

wanna walk home in rain... but can't... haha.. oh well... nvm... 习惯就好... :]

am i too 自卑 or is it the truth? or is it emo instead of that? dunno lehx.. maybe i should ask him... or him? gosh... i dunno...

realised... more ppl are bottlin up their feelings... the look super hapi outside... but then they alone tat time then super sad liao... hmm...

sheesh... stomache pain...

希望就像一根蜡烛，好的蜡烛可以永远点亮；不好的蜡烛却在一秒内熄灭。。。 something i thought of when i was bathin... lol.. so random.. ohwell.. i'm thinkin bout emo stuff then...

and watch volley juz nw.. and so... brazil's first.. usa's second... china's third... cuba's forth.. if i'm not wrong.. the brazil and usa de match so nice la.. haha.. :]

anyway... i dunno wat i'm supposed to do nw.. abt tat...

do ppl really mean it when they sae 'leave me alone'?

to anti-fahrenheit ppl.. dun read tiz para...
haha! jiro's bd is 51 more mins to go.. lol.. when i am typin tiz it is... heh... gg mass sms sia~ :P

tats all... nitex everyone...

p.s. i love you ...
can i?

3papers done, THIRTEEN more to do...

todae's eng... omg... the compo one-word topic is IDOLS! haha! its my favourite topic, as said by zn... lolx... and realised many ppl thought of me when they saw tat word... lol... i so popular worx... lol... kiddin kiddin.... haha.. anyway, dunno got write wrong not... scary.. eng is always like tat... and then 2nd paper, compre... summary... dunno wat the points are.. in the end juz put everything down... omg... first time i dunno how to change the sentence into my own words... not even one.. omg la... and and the passage is from gossip then talk abt the psycology(?)... chim...

and after tat 'volley-ded' for a while... well, at least i managed to touch the ball a few times.. seriously, i wanna improve... lol... yupp... and i tell myself i can't...

watch beach volley nw... men de.. usa and brazil... and saw ppl wearin tiz hat-like thing go spike de... dunno how describe... but its cute+funny+aa.. lolx...

tats all...

mon`no`sch`:]`

p.s. i love you ...

emo-ded.. walked in rain.. almost fall..

1paper done.. FIFTEEN more papers to go... *gasps*

emath paper1... super suay todae sia~ cuz as usual, i speed through ALL the emath qns.. then then then dunno 2times/3times.. i finish doin one qn le.. then the teacher sae the qn got some error.. then i nid redo... GRR... lol... my fault la! nvr read the qn properly.... GRRRR...

anyway, the paper's okay i think... hope i no careless mistakes.. lolx...

tmr.. tha paper i am afraid of.. ahh!!! omgosh... :'( two somemore lehx.. :(

and chem extra lesson todae.. lol.. the break that time super high sia~ maybe it's the sweet mrs tan gave us.. lolx... and i was lame-in like every page of the chem tys.. every alternate page rather... kae.. maybe onli zn&kf noe wat i tokin.. lolx.. anyway, its FUN! haha!

wat to blog leh?

wat`am`i`supposed`to`do`?`

p.s. i love you ...

and so~ english oral's gone... there goes my 20%... flunk sia~ the..the...the.. er... the... where got ppl tok like tat de? gosh... still rmb... be4 the day of the oral i was like.. give up oral le la... forget it.. my english like super bad... ha.. until someone told me something... then i 决定不要放弃。。。 yupp.. and chiong-ded picture discussion...

and watched usa and poland's vball todae.. lol... something i juz found out todae... lol... USA's coatch is a chinese.. heh...

btw, tks to those who cheered me up when i got back my cheena results.. :] tks loads! :]

我一直告诉别人要往好的方面去想， 我自己为什么却那么悲观？ 一些好事还被我想到坏去。。。

听到妈妈和阿姨说：“妹妹也说她再考的话， 机会会很小。” 当时超伤心， 好讲不讲偏偏要在我面前讲。 人家已经够难过了啦。。。 我知道这是我的错， but 让我发泄一下， 可以吗？

就这样。 晚安! :]

我`累`了`,`笑`道`累`了`，`我`可`以`大`哭`一`场`吗`?`

p.s. i love you ...
回想起， want to thank cch and bus 13 sia~

and so... got back 'o' lvl results todae... was quite disappointed... ok, its very... and the rest will be in chinese...

对不起大家。 今天的微笑是假的。 本来心情已经过不好的， 一知道成绩， haix... 但是， 一半的我很伤心， 另一半却是开心的。 开心因为我的口试得到 distinction. 伤心因为我那到 B。 以为我已经做最坏的打算了， 一直告诉自己我会拿到 D7。。。 但不知为什么， 我一知道成绩， 那总感受， 我也不知道怎么形容。。。 也许可以说是被一个很大快的石头压到， 压到心很痛很痛。。。 也有为那些得到 A1 的感到开心啊。。。 back to my own story... 当我一听到别人说他们以为我会拿 A1 时， lol 我是更难过的 lor~

breaking the news is harder than knowing the news...

omgosh.. forgot wat i wanna blog. all rite.. shall blog later if i rmb....

till then...

p.s. i love you ...

i hate myself.
i hate myself for sleeping just now.
i hate myself for keeping my inbox full.
i hate myself for 'silent-mode-ing' my phone.
i hate myself for sleeping late yesterday.
i hate myself for tiring myself out yesterday.
i hate myself for working non-stop since i woke up. (till i slept)
i hate myself for not charging my phone yesterday night.
i hate myself for being such a 'kind' soul by offering to help out in the housework.
i hate myself.

watever. i don't trust myself now.

p.s. i love you ...
ur startin to hate me nw
[SRY FOR EMO POST]

ytd, 070808.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI WEE!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS K!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!!
ahaha! soooo many ppl's bd la~ lol... wished ms k de hapi bd, to me was so gan ren sia~ haha... surprise surprise... funn sia~ :]

today,080808...
start of beijing olympics.
cross country todae... super fun! :] did loads of things... first time-ers... haha! first time spray coulour spray on hair. first time WALKED so much. first time played ddr. first time wear such a short shorts for almost the whole dae. (to be exact, its 5.30am to 8.30pm) and more.... haha~ so we walked and stoped and waited for the boys to come. then we walked together... we were seperated at thr turnin pt and met again soon... then ending's fun... we were running and shoutin 'GR!' *cheer* 'GR!' *cheer* 'GR!' *cheer* 'GR!' *cheer* and on... haha.. fun leh~ :] lets do it again! if possible... haha... <3 s

ddr-ded after tat.... haha. first time play.. super lan... lol... first time eat subway.. dunno how order.. then followed the 'order way' grace did.. lol...

no mood to blog liao.. dunno why... nvm.. if i forgot anything, i'll juz post it someone other times...

tats all...
its`quite`saddenin`when`i`saw`tat`

p.s. i love you ...
its actually cuz we toked a lot todae. after so long.

todae... nth much... juz tat i emo-ded when i reached sch or rather on my way to sch till recess or maybe even lunch, worse, till now... figured sth out when i was goin to sch.. i wonder if my guess is correct... think it is though... ok, maybe not tat dun dare part, but still, i think i might be correct...

chi sap.. my compo is badly done... half playin half writin... if i fail tiz time round, i wont be surprised... tokin 'bout chi... we're gettin our results nxt week... probably... after what i asked and after wat seow lao shi said... think it's nxt week... scary... wat if i score like a F9?! omgosh la... i'm prepared for the worse...

was quite 'grr' todae... i said to stop... but it still continues... haix...

then after sch played vball... lol. i still as lan as ever... should really learn to stop shoutin and squatin down when the ball's hit to me.. kae, dunno how explain tat...
while playin, forgot who said can see the sun rays.. and yupp, its really dere... and at one pt of time, the sun+clouds became a heart shape... super cool...

nw, the emo post...
i've stopped tryin.. seems like watever i do i wrong... maybe i'm just too stupid to think of some good ways... damn tired... *omgosh.. slaps mouth 2times* would anything happen 1 and a half hrs later? ha.. maybe its forgotten... 相当年 i still keep 盼望 tiz dae would reach faster.. then my grand plan.. i can use it... but nw, 算了吧。。。 不可能的。。。
felt like crying dunno how many times in sch todae... felt like shoutin dunno how many times in sch todae... felt like not laughin for the whole dae todae... felt like juz lyin on the table and do nth for the whole dae todae... how i wish i can tell the teacher i'm sick todae and then i can do tat...
how can someone who do not know what happened solve the problem.. i thought and thought, and all i can think abt is tat.. and onli tat... looks like no one's helpin me to solve tat... 只得靠自己。。。 cuz, my quote, 不要把自己的痛苦建在别人的痛苦上。。。 yupps... unless someone comes straight into my face(?) and ask me what happen... maybe i would share... probably i wont...

tats all.... oh wait.. juz wish those who are sick, have a speedy recovery and get well soon and faster get high.. lol.. kae nvm.. random...

p.s. i love you ...
iwannalie.. iwannalieonurshoulderagain...
itisverydifficult... ithink...

sry... tiz post gg to be mostly emo stuffs...

watched 恶作剧2吻。 saw one super emo part... ariel said those while CRYING... there it is:
我不想让你看见我在哭。为什么只有我在哭？ 你都不会难过吗？ 不是这样子的。 不是这样子的嘛！ 我受不了了。 真得受不了了。 只有我那么爱你。 你。。。 你连正眼都不愿意看我一眼。 你根本就不爱我嘛！

XX你不爱我了对不对？ 不对。 你从一开始就没有爱过我。

一切都完了。　我最害怕的，　怕得不敢开口问，　但是在我心中，　一直一直这么认为的是，　终于受出来了。　我不想要这样的夜晚，　我害怕一个人过。

XX是你当初你自己的选择哦， 你是不是改为自己的选择做点责任？

btw, the last para is someone tryin to console her. and XX is someone's name...

its super emo sia~ but anyway, it did 'potray' some of my feelings... some is last time de... some is nw de... so, i super like tiz whole thing..

and... heard tiz... dunno from where/who. forgot.
‘喜欢就应该占有’
[the paragraph below,A is the one who 占有，B is the 受害者。]
真的吗？喜欢就可以占有吗？ 如果是这样， B不是会很伤心吗？ 一直为A改变， 一直听A的话， 但最后， 只有A在控制B, B很伤心A也不知道。B 想找人谈心事， 最终也会被骂。 A难道都不会觉得B很可怜吗？A一点都不知道B为他付出了多少，A还嫌B做得太夸张，叫B以后不要再这么做了。。。

ahahaha... sth formed tks to 'they kiss again' and my brain... lol...

what will happen 2days from todae? tiz qn kept strollin past my mind... i'm so dumb till i imagained tat all tiz is an act and i will get a big surprise on tues... ha... tat will nvr ever happen... the probability of tat happenin is like the probability tat i will score and A1 in ss... one out of an infinity...

曾经有人说过， 希望越大， 失望越大。 所以我现在都不敢希望什么了。。。

我都不知道有几次我很想哭， 几次想伤心一阵天。。。 这已经不知道是第几天， 我坚强的对朋友微笑。。。 我曾经答应过， 我不会在学校伤心的。。。 这个好难做到哦。。。

我太傻了我。。。 不知道发生什么事， 不知道该做什么， 不知道。。。 就什么都不知道。。。 天啊！ 帮我可以吗？ 我求求你。。。

everytime i watch 恶作剧, i always will sad lor...

我一看到什么就想到你， 最近避免走我每次走回家的那一条路。。。 如果走过， 我就一直看着地板， 不敢抬起头。。。 奇怪的是， 我多么想见你， 为什么我还会做出这些动作呢？ nvr mind... i shall think of tiz cliche(?) thing.. 不管你在那里， 至少我们都在同一片天空下。。。 现在只有这句能让我‘自我安慰’ 了。。。

好吧。。。 明天再继续。。。 今天还要敢完我的英文功课。。。

再见了大家。。。

p.s. i love you ...

我们之间距离那么近， 但我却不知道你在想什么。。。

i'm sick... flu + cough.. gaga!

anyway, tiz week was the funnest week in sch... lol.. i think... like the trip and fall 'fight' we have and and the centipede thing... haha! super funny la~! :]

oh... got new hobby liao... saein a very high hi... lol... and another one... puttin smilies... hapi face rather...

had health check todae... haha.. dun nid take forward bending test... cuz my backbone's straight... lol.. heh...

<3 todae's lunch... haha... super funny... kept laughin while i was eatin my last bites... and i have to put all the bowls back AGAIN.. lolx... should change the rule to most dirtiest bowl/plate... lol... aiya.. dun last person to finish ok liao la~

anyway, muz slp early todae... sick ma.. lolx...

tats all... :] nite everyone... :]

p.s. i love you ...